Thursday, April 25, 2013


So.  Remember when Clark lost his job and our lives were turned upside down?  We're still upside down.  All along people have been asking how it's going, but lately I've had a lot of, "So, what are your plans?"  Um, our plan is to find a job and then for him to work there.  That's the plan.  I've got nothing more concrete than that.

But it turns out that living your life on hold is not very fun.  In fact, it sucks.  You feel like you have no control, and you are just stuck.  Waiting.  Endlessly.  It's hard to know whether you should live like you are about to move, or if you should just pretend nothing is happening to maintain some sense of normalcy, if for no other reason than the kids.  (Think of the children!)

We've basically opted for the later.  Not too much has changed around here, other than Clark is home all the time, and we have cut back on the budget.  So life goes on, and suddenly I'm the chairman of the parent board at the preschool next year, and I'm not sure they fully realize that chances are we'll move sometime over the summer.  I've tried to warn them, but I'm not sure it's sunk in yet.  And then, maybe we won't.  The unknown is overwhelming sometimes. 

Anyway, the point is, we decided that we needed to have SOMETHING to look forward to, or we'd go insane.  And since it's a real possibility that we won't live in Michigan for much longer, we thought it was high time we paid a visit to Kirtland, while it's still a short drive away.  And since Clark doesn't have to do things like take days off, we went in the middle of the week during spring break.  Left on a Wednesday morning, spent that afternoon and the next morning seeing the sights, and headed home Thursday.  It was quick, but it was exactly what we needed.  We did everything on the cheap, which turned out to be pretty easy because all the church sites are free!  Except for the temple, which was a nominal fee.  But still, a pretty affordable trip. 

I had never been to Kirtland before, so I thought it was absolutely fascinating.  And the girls did pretty well.  It helped that we had some understanding missionaries, who kept the tours simple, and let the girls set the pace.  I'm pretty sure it was best for us to go during the slow season, when we could be the only people on the tour through Historic Kirtland.

Here we are at the Whitney store! 

And the temple.  Oh, the temple.  It was so beautiful.  SO beautiful.  I was very impressed with our tour guide, she was great.  I'll admit to being a little skeptical of a Community of Christ tour, but that was completely unfounded.  It was spot on.  And we even got to sing The Spirit of God, in the temple!  And on April 3 to boot (the day the Savior appeared in the temple).  That was a very special moment.  I'll never forget it.

And apparently on this trip Julia decided to have "open mouth" smiles. 

On Thursday morning we headed out to the John Johnson home in Hiram, OH.  I'd heard from my dad that it was worth the drive, and he was right.  That home has the spirit there.  From the moment you walk in, you feel it.  And we were the only ones there, too.  The sweet couple who took is through the home let Julia and Ella linger behind  when they wanted to (watched by one of them, to make sure they weren't wreaking havoc on the home), which made all the difference.  It allowed me to really focus on what happened there, instead of on keeping my kids quiet.  Here we are at the front door.  Again with the "I'm going to eat you" smile.

So while it was a whirlwind trip, I'm so glad we did it.  It gave us all something to plan for and look forward to, and it was a great experience.  And honestly, more than anything else, I think we just needed the change of scenery.  Even for just one night.  I feel like I'm still trying to navigate life with Clark home all day, and I'm not sure I'm doing it very well.  Doing something different was very much needed.  For our sanity. 

Hoorah for Kirtland!


Sabrina said...

Ok, so many thoughts:

1. I want whatever is best for your lives. I just keep hoping what's best means you'll be really, really close to us and I hope that whatever is best in terms of employment happens in the very near future. Still praying for you all the time!

2. I think it's so great that you took a little adventure to Kirtland for a change of scenery. Sometimes that is just what the doctor ordered.

3. I LOVE Kirtland. I was a huge brat during my family's excursion across the country when I was a young teenager, but I distinctly remember loving Kirtland and Hiram and not being such a big brat while we visited there. I remember that part of our trip vividly.

4. That is so great that they catered to the fact that you had children while on the tours. Remember how that didn't happen so much while at the Grandin Publishing House with hungry, tired kids? Good times!

5. I think that is seriously amazing that you got to sing the "Spirit of God" at the temple on April 3rd. What a memory!

6. Hiram, OH is a very humbling place to visit, isn't it? I still have poignant memories of the tour guides telling us about Joseph being dragged out of the house to be tarred and feathered and then his child getting sick because they left the door open and he died due to exposure. I can't even begin to fathom the things Joseph and his family went through. They were definitely put through the refiner's fire, so very many times!

7. It must be a tradition for the tour guides to be exceptionally nice in Hiram because when we visited almost 20 years ago (ok, that made me feel old typing that), my parents were asking where the nearest good place to stop and camp would be and they just told us to camp right there on the property!

See, told you I had lots to say :) Love you guys!

alisquire said...

My favorite part of this post was "Think of the children!"

Best o' luck in the job searching department.

Elizabeth Glenn said...

I'm so sad at the idea of you guys leaving. And yet, I completely understand the pain of living in waiting!!

Karen said...

That sounds like a wonderful trip at the perfect time! Hang in there! We are praying you guys find a job soon!

Alyssa said...

Sorry to hear about Clark! That's rough! I'm glad you got to go to Kirtland, though. I didn't realize you lived that close to it. It's a beautiful place. Sending love and prayers your way! Hope he finds work he loves soon!

asm said...

I have found that I just have to pretend all is normal or I'll go crazy. nobody knows you may end up staying there. that sounds like an amazing trip. so cool you took the opportunity.

Natalie Jane said...

That sucks. We are in a kind of similar situation with just waiting for our home in Tennessee to sell. With renters that didn't pay, to having the house on the market, we've been paying double mortgage for a while. It seems like all we do is watch out money ebb away and wait for it to get better. I'm just ready to be on the other end of this trial.