Monday, October 14, 2013

So....moving is hard.

Ok.  We're about to get very real here.  Brace yourselves.

It's been about a month now since we moved.  From the get-go I've known that the first few months would be hard, that it takes time to settle in and meet new people.  I've done this moving thing a few times, and I knew that once the dust settled and the boxes were banished to the garage, things would start to feel like home. 

The dust has settled.  The boxes are banished.  This still doesn't feel like home.

There is so much to be happy about.  Clark has employment (HALLELUJAH!).  We have returned to a regular schedule, with Dad heading to work every morning, and Mom staying home with the kids.  Julia started Kindergarten, and has adjusted very well.  We have a plethora of restaurants in this town.  We're so much closer to a number of museums and zoos.  And I am very happy about all those things.  I keep trying to put on a brave face, and tell myself that this will all work out, to give it time.

But this doesn't feel like home yet.

I miss MY house.  Part of me wishes we could just move back in.  But I know that's not possible, so I want the house to sell quickly so we can move on financially.  And there is really nothing I can do about that except wait and hope and pray that someone sees it and loves it as much as we did.  I miss our old routine, our old preschool, all-day Kindergarten.  And most of all I miss my friends.  My dear friends!  Between our moving and the moving of other families we know, I've got little pieces of my heart scattered all across the country, and at this moment?  I feel like my heart will never be put back together.

And then the holidays are coming up.  Oh, the holidays.  What on earth are we going to do for the holidays?  Christmas was still a bit sad in Midland, being so far from family, but now?  How do I keep that happiest day of the year from becoming my own personal pity party?

Basically, what this all boils down to is: Wah.  Moving is hard.  Pity me.


Sabrina said...

So sorry, Shans! I am sure you'll settle in, but this in between time is hard. I am now trying to figure out a way in which we could miraculously meet-up for Christmas. Love you!

Gretchen said...

I MISS YOU TOO!!!!!!!! But I know that everyone down there is SO blessed to have you and you'll definitely be seeing us when we're down there (you can't shake me that easily!). SO much love is coming your way from Michigan!!!

Laura said...

I know!! Moving is really, really hard. At first it's hard physically, but mostly it's hard emotionally. I'm impressed you are already in a routine - for some reason this move has been hard for me that way. I can't seem to get into a groove!

I'm sorry it doesn't feel like home yet. Hopefully soon. And hopefully the house sells quickly. I know what it's like to keep waiting and wondering if your house is ever going to sell. Ours finally did after a year - hopefully yours will sell more quickly.

I for one am so grateful you are here!! It's such a comfort knowing you are close. I need to figure out my routine so we can get together more!

Judy said...

I wish I could be your neighbor once again. I miss you and your entire family.

I also don't like moving either. It has taken me a long time to feel at home in my new neighborhood. I am still feel like Yale is my family, but I am getting more at home as I serve in the Relief Society. Now I have more family members.

Hugs are being sent your way.

Erica said...

We miss you guys too! I remember moving here and it literally taking a good year before I finally felt at home. It sucks when there's just nothing more you can really do to make those feelings change. I wish you guys the best of luck, know that every time we watch Big Bang we are thinking of you, and you are always more than welcome to come back and visit your old home :)

Celeste Hunt said...

Turns out that even though my blog has ceased to be used... ever... other people still have blogs, and USE them! (I SHOULD make a habit of reading more often!) We are in serious need of moving and it scares me to death. I agree, moving IS hard! In SO many ways. I just want to move onto your street and then we could be neighbors and bottle brownies together and carve pumpkins for thanksgiving! :) You are such great people, I'm sure you'll find friends and neighbors that will help it to feel like the home you long for, but in the mean time I'm really sorry that you're having a hard time. You really are the best. It won't take long for your new ward to realize that! :)

Beth said...

I could have written this post, word for word. I just moved TO Michigan (Grand Rapids) from the east coast. 10 years in my old home, where my kids were born and I had fantastic friends. I too feel like my heart will never be that full again, although I know it's not true. And I know it's a matter of time but its hard waiting until things feel somewhat normal again. At any rate, its nice knowing you're not the only one feeling this way, right?!

Beth said...

I could have written this post word for word! We just moved TO Michigan (Grand Rapids) from the east coast where we lived in our house or ten years and brought our babies home from the hospital. I miss my friends, house, community...all of it. I too know it takes time and I know I'll be happy again but I'm pretty sad about it now. At any rate, its pretty nice knowing you're not the only one feeling that way , right?!